the big S

this is the time of the year when it is time to get on with things. you know that it's summer, it's been kinda nice... then not. some sunny days, you may even spend all day indoors because you know there'll be other sunny days. july 1st always gets me a bit panicked about being wet, moody and wrapped in a flannel very soon, so I'd better stop anything that doesn't allow me to fully embrace Summer with a big S.

so this weekend i'll be in oregon camping on the beach with my family. i hope to build sand castles, run trails, drink whiskey and learn something new about everyone there.

we finally got those folding camping chairs that everyone has. the kind you get for $7 at the drug store or $25 at REI (which do you think i got?) i love them because they keep you off the ground. this staying out of the dirt thing took me a while to figure out. I thought, "what's the point in going camping if you don't get dirty?" but you know what, it's often moist and damp here in the NW and the dirt becomes mud even if just for the few hours before the sun dries it out. i am also a more active camper now that I am off the ground, I can just hop up and do something, instead of pointing and grunting when I want another marshmallow.

happy summer everyone.

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Currently listening: Freak Out By 311 Release date: By 12 November, 1992

12:40

Sorry dear readers. I've been so tired. How does this happen. I hope to be myself again. Just came from Jadrea's b-day. What a lovely lady. I love going somewhere where everyone knows my name. To the guy who did a terrible dye job on my hair....i hope you take a swig from an expired jug of milk and spit it all over your new leather jacket. night night.

Currently listening: Let It Be By Replacements Release date: By 03 September, 2002

pod love

my sexy, smart, awesome husband gave me an ipod for our first anniversary which is this coming monday. ( i can't believe it's been an entire year since that wonderful day)

now i feel so modern and cool. it looks and sound really good my little buggle. i wanted to name it lilly but C-man didn't hear me right and named it willy. completely different. now my poor ipods first day out of the box is a gender confused mess. geeze i'll have to load hewoman with some ween and sheman will feel better.

Currently listening: Full Clip: A Decade of Gang Starr By Gang Starr Release date: By 13 July, 1999

bye bye suff

had a yard sale this weekend. it was a lot of fun. thanks to all of my friends that came by and took a bit of us home.

When ever i have a yard sale as i see people walk away with these things i don't want or need anymore i always have second thoughts, like maybe i should have kept that. kinda pathetic. i think i am in danger of becoming a magazine stacking, pen saving, knickknack hording, art supply collecting hermit who can't find her way out of her house the same way twice. better watch myself.

we sold tons of records from Johnny cash to the star wars sound track. books were also hot items.

my hubby was the price pushover, i on the other hand made quite a bit of cash holding firm to my fair prices. i figure if i just want to get rid of stuff I can take it to the local charity thrift shop, but i wanted to make some money. is that so wrong?

rest of the weekend was good. ended up at the University Street fair, didn't even know it was going on. i realized while there that when i worked that event those were the work 4 day of my life. if you want to be verbally abused by total strangers for 2 days try your hand working with craft and food vendors. those people come from some place where it's ok to scream in people's faces when you aren't getting your way, now. i always say that one of the golden rules of society is that you can't yell at anyone you don't love.

oh and i got the most awesome, cute, make you drool braclet. thanks taffy for talking me into it;)

clear cuts and summer camps

I just got back from a visit to the local Air force base. I've never been to any military establishment unless you count the creepy nuclear control center that my old job used as a warehouse or former bases converted into city and state parks. These parks are always slightly eerie and like a forest that has been clear cut, the ground, plants and air never seem quite right.

the base i was on today was like a small town crossed with a college, crossed with a summer camp crossed with a prison. all the people seemed so comfortable. like being in a place where everyone shares such common experiences provides confidence. as i drove through i wanted to be one of them. it's the same feeling i get when i walk on a college campus and want to be a student or visit a retreat center/summer camp and what to be on the staff.

all the people i saw where very different. the mix of race, culture and class present in the few blocks of the base I cruised through in my beetle were more diverse than any place i've ever been.

everyone wants to belong to a group. i don't even think it matters to most who else is in the group or what the group exists for. we just want the confidence that only comes when you are so completly the same as everyone around you that your differences are able to shine

dark sky light sky why sky

my mood has been completly wacked out lately. when i started writing i wanted to compare it to the dymanic weather that's been happeing outside of my window at work, but i realize there is nothing dynamic or beautiful about my sudden slip into what i hate to admitt may be slight depression. actually i kid myself to think my mood is wavering between dark and light, it's just plain old dark and for no resond. i am pretty much against using an online journal to talk about how sad and depressed I am but this is so out of charater for me. i think writing about it will cause it some grand embarassment and it will run screaming from my body faster than it came in.but the weather is amazing and beautiful. the black clouds roll in and sit there..very still..i'm on edge waiting for something spatacular. then i get up to go to the printer come back and the sun is shinning like it's been there all day. sneaky sky.

changing my lens

I finally got a digital camera this week. i've been using a beautiful professional 35mm for many many years, but my little house can not absorb anymore photo albums or boxes full of double prints that I am totally going to sent out to all of the people i love or met once while taking the pictures.

now i can post pictures online a lot easier. i read this blog, dooce.com and her photo taking is so inspiring. so stay tuned for some rockin images.

i'm hoping being more proactive with my photos will be the start of being more proactive with all of my interest....well see.